Headlights

　　Headlights-Eminem

　　Mom, I know I let you down

　　妈妈 我让你失望了

　　And though you say the days are happy

　　你说那些日子是幸福的

　　Why is the power off, and I'm fucked up?

　　那又为何让它们远去 让我变成如今这样

　　And mom, I know he's not around

　　妈妈 我知道他已不在

　　But don't you place the blame on me

　　但别迁怒于我

　　As you pour yourself another drink

　　请平心静气

　　I guess we are who we are

　　我觉得我们知道彼此的意义

　　Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on

　　在黑夜中总有盏明灯鼓励我

　　Maybe we took this too far

　　但我们却深藏于心 不肯坦白

　　I went in headfirst

　　我独断专行

　　Never thinking about who

　　从不顾虑

　　what I said hurt, in what verse

　　在那一句押韵的冷嘲热讽里让人受伤

　　My mom probably got it the worst

　　而我的妈妈 因此痛不欲生

　　The brunt of it, but as stubborn as we are

　　隔阂多深 我多狠

　　Did I take it too far?

　　是不是我太绝

　　Cleaning out my closet and all them other songs

　　就像在清理我的衣橱或者其他差不多的歌里做的

　　But regardless I don't hate you cause ma!

　　不管怎样我们并不恨你因为妈妈

　　You're still beautiful to me, cause you're my mom

　　你在我眼中始终那么明艳动人 因为你是我妈妈啊

　　Though far be it for you to be calling, my house was Vietnam

　　我的家是不是离你十万八千里 所以你不联系我

　　Desert Storm and both of us put together can

　　我们俩聚集就如同军事行动里的

　　form an atomic bomb equivalent to Chemical warfare

　　自动等量化学炸弹随时待命

　　And forever we can drag this on and on

　　永远背负包袱慢慢向前

　　But, agree to disagree

　　接受分歧好吗

　　That gift from me up under the Christmas tree

　　躺在圣诞树下我送你的礼物

　　don't mean shit to me

　　对我来说屁都不算

　　You're kicking me out? It's 15 degrees

　　你把握赶出去 在15度的

　　and it's Christmas Eve （little prick just leave）

　　平安夜（小刺头滚吧）

　　Ma, let me grab my fucking coat,

　　妈 让我拿走我该死的外套

　　anything to have each other's goats

　　拿走能让彼此泄愤的东西

　　Why we always at each others throats?

　　我们怎么总是争执

　　Especially when dad, he fucked us both

　　尤其是当爸爸 他对我们干出混蛋事儿时

　　We're in the same fucking boat,

　　我们特么的不是一边的吗

　　you'd think that it'd make us close （nope）

　　那应该让我们更亲密啊（却恰恰相反）

　　Further away that drove us,

　　我们渐行渐远

　　but together headlights shine,

　　但却在新闻头条里共同闪耀

　　a car full of belongings

　　我甚至住在了车里

　　Still got a ways to go, back to grandma's

　　幸好还不至于无处可在

　　house it's straight up the road

　　我回到了再路旁的老房子里

　　And I was the man of the house, the oldest,

　　现在我是一家之主了

　　so my shoulders carried the weight of the load

　　肩负重担

　　Then Nate got taken away

　　真正的走了

　　by the state at 8 years old, and

　　在8岁的时候

　　That's when I realized you were sick

　　也就是那时 我意识到你很恶心

　　and it wasn't fixable or changable

　　而我也不能走回正道了

　　And to this day we remained estranged

　　从那天起我们疏远了

　　and I hate it though, but

　　虽然我厌恶这样 但

　　I guess we are who we are

　　我在想 我们到底是谁

　　Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on

　　在黑夜中总有盏明灯鼓励我

　　Maybe we took this too far

　　但我们却深藏于心 不肯坦白

　　Cause to this day we remain estranged

　　因为那一天我们日远日疏

　　and I hate it though

　　尽管我厌烦这样

　　Cause you ain't even get to witness your

　　因而你甚至不能见证

　　grand baby's growth

　　孙女的成长

　　But I'm sorry mama for Cleaning Out

　　但妈妈 我为清理我的衣橱而道歉

　　My Closet, at the time I was angry

　　那时我被愤怒冲昏头脑

　　Rightfully maybe so, never meant

　　也许我们都知道

　　that far to take it though, cause

　　这个道歉来得太晚了

　　Now I know it's not your fault,

　　因为现在我懂了那并不是你的错

　　and I'm not making jokes

　　我不会再唱

　　That song I no longer play at shows

　　也不会再在

　　and I cringe every time it's on the radio

　　电台里每时每刻都捧夸那是首歌

　　And I think of Nathan being placed in a home

　　现在我想起了 Nathan在家里的地位

　　And all the medicine you fed us

　　还有所有你给我们吃的苦

　　And how I just wanted you to taste your own, but

　　那时我是多么想以牙还牙

　　Now the medications taken over

　　但现在反过来了

　　and your mental states deteriorating slow

　　你的精神状态已在慢慢恶化

　　And I'm way too old to cry,

　　我欲哭无泪

　　that shit's painful though

　　即使这他妈的多么痛

　　But ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan yo

　　但是妈妈 我原谅你 Nathan也是

　　All you did, all you said,

　　所有你所做的 你听说的

　　you did your best to raise us both

　　你真的竭尽全力抚育我俩成长

　　Foster care, that cross you bare,

　　如今我看护你 无事不至

　　few may be as heavy as yours

　　跟你当年也差不多了吧

　　But I love you Debbie Mathers,

　　我爱你黛比马瑟斯

　　oh what a tangled web we have, cause

　　我们的关系掺杂了许多杂质 因为

　　One thing I never asked was

　　有一件事我永不问

　　where the fuck my deadbeat dad was

　　那就是我那个讨厌的软包老爹在哪里

　　Fuck it I guess he had trouble

　　我他妈的猜他

　　keeping up with every address

　　住哪里哪里就有麻烦

　　But I'd have flipped every mattress,

　　但我翻遍所有床垫

　　every rock and desert cactus

　　每块磐石还有仙人掌

　　Own a collection of maps and

　　得到一个藏宝图

　　followed my kids to the edge of the atlas

　　跟随我的孩子去到的地图的边缘

　　Someone ever moved them from me?

　　有人动了他们

　　That you could bet your ass's

　　那么最好祈祷不会被我痛打一顿

　　If I had to come down the

　　是否我要穿得

　　chimney dressed as Santa, kidnap them

　　像圣诞老人一样从烟囱里爬出来 然后诱拐他们

　　And although one has met their grandma

　　尽管有一个刚刚跟祖母分别

　　Once you pulled up in our drive one night

　　有次你在我们开车

　　as we were leaving to get some handburgers

　　去买汉堡的时候让我们停止

　　Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you

　　我 她 还有Nate 我们跟他介绍你并拥你入怀

　　And as you left I had this overwhelming

　　你走之后

　　sadness come over me

　　我不能承受的悲哀涌入我全身

　　As we pulled off to go our separate paths, and

　　我们步入了截然不同的路

　　I saw your headlights as I looked back

　　当我翻阅旧事时 我看到了你的头条

　　And I'm mad I didn't get the chance to

　　我感激你

　　thank you for being my Mom and my Dad

　　是我人生路上最重要的人 爸爸 妈妈

　　So Mom, please accept this as a tribute

　　因此妈妈 请把这当成礼物收下吧

　　I wrote this on the jet

　　我是在飞机上写下了它

　　I guess I had to get this off my chest,

　　我感到我必须开诚公布了

　　I hope I get the chance to lay it before I'm dead

　　在我死去之前 我希望能有机会把这些尽情倾听

　　The stewardess said to fasten my seatbelt,

　　空姐说要系好安全带

　　I guess we're crashing

　　我猜要坠机了

　　So if I'm not dreaming, I hope you this message

　　所以如若我不是在做梦的话

　　that I'll always love you from afar

　　我希望你能从远方收到我爱你的讯息

　　Cause you're my mama...

　　因为你终究是我妈妈…

　　I guess we are who we are

　　我在想我们终究是我们自己

　　Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on

　　在黑夜中总有盏明灯鼓励我

　　Maybe we took this too far

　　但我们却深藏于心 不肯坦白

　　I want a new life

　　我想要新生

　　One without a cause

　　一个没有痛苦的人生

　　So I'm coming home tonight

　　所以我今夜回家了

　　Well no matter what the cost

　　无论代价是什么

　　And if the plane goes down

　　假如别人没有让我醒来

　　And if the crew can't wake me up

　　假如别人没有让我醒来

　　Just know that I was alright

　　就知道我很好就行了

　　And I was not afraid to die

　　我并不害怕死亡

　　Even if there's songs to sing

　　即使还有歌想唱

　　My children will carry me

　　我的孩子会继承我的一切

　　Just know that I'm alright

　　知我我很好就可以了

　　I was not afraid to die

　　我不畏怯死亡

　　Because I put my faith in my new girl

　　因为我的小女孩 可以延续我的信仰

　　So I never say goodbye cruel world

　　所以冷酷的世界永会再见

　　Just know that I'm alright

　　知道我很好就可以了

　　I am not afraid to die

　　我无畏长眠不起

　　I guess we are who we are

　　我想 我们就是我们自己

　　Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on

　　在黑夜中总有盏明灯鼓励我

　　Maybe we took this too far

　　但我们却深藏于心 不肯坦白