You'll Only End Up Joining Them(Live) (Live) - Kevin Devine
Tonight I'm posed and popping like a peacock
Pressing flesh smiling big spinning head sings
Stop just stop
Cause what used to calm me down
Just rips my life to ribbons now
So I keep smiling I find my window and quick cut out
These days my hangman's hunger makes my gut kick
My sleeping mind could map it blind
A flask a key a bag a fifth
I try to will myself away
While shouting habits plead their case
So when the sun sears through my eyes
My beggar's brain can't compromise
I splash cold water I draw the curtains I stay inside
And I can't say that it's a sickness more like a stranger I ask in
And later realize was a strangler
Slipping nooses in my den
But I was lonely so I asked him
Would you tie that one on me
It wasn't his fault I was eager and I was weak
So as I inch towards resolution
Yea I'm not sure which life feels right
A narrow noose or the wading water
The hanging head sore open eyes
My brother he went one way
And at the fork I heard him say
Don't you follow don't go making my mistakes
And I realized what he meant
Don't kill yourself to raise the dead
It never works you'll only end up joining them
It never works you'll only end up joining them