Hope of Morning - Icon for Hire
My mind's a kaleidoscope it thinks too fast
我的心就是一个万花筒，认为变化太快了
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
让所有的颜色都变得模糊，直到我看不出它过去的样子
The last mistake the choice I made
上一次错误，我做的选择
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
凝视镜子中的自己，不断自责
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
有时候我害怕内心的想法
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
在我的脑海里无处躲藏
I'm scared that you'll compare and
我害怕你会去比较
I'll look a lifetime past repair
我会用一辈子的时间去修复
I second guess myself to death
我再次猜测自己要死亡
I re-solicit every step
每一步都去恳求
What if my words are meaningless
如果我的话是没有意义的
What if my heart's misleading this
如果我的心被误导了
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
我试图捕捉到每一个时刻
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company
填满记忆，让它们陪伴着我
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当早晨的希望从我心中慢慢逝去
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢独自走在黑夜中
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
早晨的希望值得我去奋斗
I will not be giving in tonight
今晚我不会放弃
When I'm old and grey or thirty
当我老了，头发花白了，或者30岁了
Or whatever happens first
或者不管首先发生了什么
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
我需要你来安慰我，我一点不会浪费
Or worse what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
或者糟糕一点，如果我的一生都只有我自己
Like never let you get a word in
像是从来没有让你说过一句话
While I dissect my mental health
我会剖析自己的心理健康情况
Or lack thereof whatever there's too many things to track
或者缺少什么，不管是什么，都有太多的事情要追踪
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
我真的不记得自己是不是疯了或是失眠了
Now days all the kids want crazy wanna diagnose themselves
现在，所有的孩子都想疯狂，都想为他们自己诊断
Trade up made up epidemics
堆积一些流行病
Pass around prescription pills
需要分发一些处方药
But my disorder can't be cured
但我的病没办法治愈
By a bottle blade or dose
通过一瓶药，一个刀片或者一剂药
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
自我厌恶和自私都慢慢走近我
But I don't wanna let you see that
但我不想让你看到
I don't want my friends to know
我不想让我的朋友知道
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go
不管我走到哪里，都带着自我厌恶和自私
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当早晨的希望从我心中慢慢逝去
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢独自走在黑夜中
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
早晨的希望值得我去奋斗
I will not be giving in tonight
今晚我不会放弃
Try as I might to keep it together
会努力跟他在一起
Why is recovery taking forever
为什么复苏要等到永远
Fool the whole world just until I get better
欺骗整个世界，直到我得到更好的
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
我害怕自己会永远假装下去
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
我一直想知道我的脑子里到底是哪里错了
I don't have to have the answers but tonight I wish I did
我不需要答案，但今晚我希望我能够得到
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
所有的痛苦我都无法解释，它们也不会消失
All the the secrets silenced by the shame
所有无声的秘密都是耻辱
Don't make me say it
别让我再说了
Don't make me say it
别让我再说了
Don't make me say it
别让我再说了
Don't make me say it
别让我再说了
Don't make me say it
别让我再说了
Don't make me say it
别让我再说了
Don't make me say it
别让我再说了
When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
当早晨的希望从我心中慢慢逝去
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
我不敢独自走在黑夜中
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
早晨的希望值得我去奋斗
I will not be giving in tonight
今晚我不会放弃